just listen...

One of my friends nicole recently came up with her first blogpost, about choices. And it made a big point. The choices we make can either build or tear us down. We try to not make it such a big deal about the choices we make, but later on we'll regret them. Trust me, I know.

We all like to think that we know whats best for other people. But sometimes thats the problem. We like to put other people first before our own, which is a problem because we end up giving up on ourselves trying to make other people happy. If someone is sad, you try to cheer them up no matter what the consequences. Even if you end up sad yourself. Because it's in your nature to put people before you and take care of them. Right?

We waste all this time caring about what people think of us, but we end up giving up in the end because we feel unloved/ not needed. And that can lead to a lot of things that end a friendship/relationship/life...

It's really hard for me to write emotional moving things. To pour my heart on the page, because I just end up hiding my feelings or feel like my writing SUCKS and that i can't write anything well or worth reading.

But the choices we make (like I said earlier) make us who we are. And whether they are good or bad. They're done and over with. And we cant change them. No matter how much we want to. It like saying that you can choose who you fall in love with. You just can't tell if it will end up being all OK or terrible.


Talk to you later darlings... :)

Thing that I don't understand.

I dont understand the feeling of love, just the term in general is confusing to me. Falling in love. Uhm excuse me but the only place i want fall is on my bed, falling asleep. The whole term is saying that once you fall in love you cant get up again. (referring to the always going to have some feelings for that person no matter how much you don't want to.) It's just another way to say "this isnt going to end well."  The topic is just so awkward to talk about in in general but everyone always say "i love him" or "i love her" and i sorta just pisses me off because of the whole fact that I myself am a forever alone-e.

Feelings are just annoying as they are. Like ooh HAPPY now i'm pissed off! and sad! Like seriously brain make up your damn mind!
Why do we tend to hide out feelings? I:m not going to be a hypocrite or anything by saying i'm always truthful. because i'm not. No one besides me knows what i'm hiding behind my smile. seriosly. No music in the whole entire world that could make my feelings come out to someone other than myself. I have to hold everything back and I hate it, but i cant do anything about it i've always held in my feelings and i cant express. I feel like i'll be judged and I just don't know if i could ever handle being judged harshly again. I don't want to fall back into the bad life. I'm already half way there... And it scares me sometimes. In the beginning of 10th grade i was thinking of being pro-ana again and i just couldn't do it for too long. I cut at the end of 9th grade. and stopped before summer. But every now and then(a lot more than I thought) i like to dig my nails in my skin the leave scars but they don't last. i wish they did though. i would have hundreds on my arms and legs. I'm not going to go on about my life because there are things that I don't want to put out to the public.


So i'll talk to you later darlings!

I'm sorry

I've recently started a new blog and I'm not sure when or even if I'm going to share the blog with the world or not. I have been really busy the past few months. I recently just took the state reading test for 10th grade. I can believe that I'll be a junior next year. In part of my body I'm excited. Then on the other hand I m scared. This year I had no BFs in school it's pretty upsetting. And I'm scared that next year ill be forever alone and single for the rest of my life. And it makes me feel like this.

Fun fun

So the past week has been fun. I didn't keep my promise *sorry* but I'm gunna try to post a lot more than I was. I'm also gunna post more videos on my YouTube channel. ( youtube.com/tweetyzir )just give me video suggestions on what you wanna see! Enjoy! I will probably be making a video tonight sooo comment on what you want to see!

Talk to you later!

<3 Zoe

Spring break!

I know I've been terrible with my promises these past few weeks. I've just been so busy that I haven't been able to post anything. Well any way, it's spring break and were going to have some fun this week!! So leave comments bellow and ill talk to you in a few

Which one would you chose

Just for laughs.